“Close some doors. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because they no longer lead somewhere.”
– Paulo Coehlo
Day One of Early Morning Rising
Paulo Coehlo speaks to my soul through his words of adventure, seeking the path that has been laid out in front of us since our birth. We see many paths, but know only one path will lead us to fulfilling our vocation, enhancing and growing our spiritual gifts.
It has been hard for me to close some doors since returning to Arkansas. I often found myself living in the dreamland of the future (which isn’t always necessarily bad). Dreams are beyond needed and I believe can tell you the true inklings of your heart’s desire. But see, I was forgetting that the fullness of life is experiencing the journey rather than arriving at the goal/end result/”the end” to my story.
I believe an aim in life is beneficial and I now have one that is founded in spiritual direction, health, and communion with a God. I remember scoffing at people who would talk about spiritual discernment, mainly out of a lack of understanding. And usually because it was either a male/female discerning if God wanted them in this romantic relationship with the result of always being “no.” I felt that this was fake and it made me want to run away from the mystical heart breaker. Now I apologize for my judgement. Regardless of their intentions, it is not my place to sit and question their faith.
Also, I understand. God can and does speak through others, dreams, in the silence of the morning and in the chaos of the day.
Here I sit on the day after Ash Wednesday, praying and seeking that the additional practices and disciplines over the next 40 days will allow me to grow into the woman God has seen in me since birth. One that I’ve only begun to understand and love over the past year.
I’ve embraced my recent journey and hope to continue to do so.
And to close with a wonderful quote spoken during my body prayer yoga class on Sunday:
“Our job is to love others, without stopping to inquire whether or not they are worthy. That is not our business and, in fact, it is nobody’s business. What we are asked to do is to love, and this love itself will render both ourselves and our neighbors worthy.”
– Thomas Merton